And here we are again. This being the second blog I'm posting. Its early Sunday Afternoon and I'm listening to the new James Blunt CD... something about British Singers I really get addicted to. Speaking of which I belive sometime in the next ten years, I may be moving to London. Even though I've never been there that city just keeps calling to me. And it would be a nice base to explore the rest of the European Areas which hold much significance to me.

And for some reason I keep seeing myself with a Brittish Girl eventually. That accent just drives me wild.. can't explain it really. Must be a past life thing. LOL

Well the Spring Semester is coming to a close. Next week is the final one I just have Three Final Exams to make it through and I'm finsished with it. Last monday they held an awards ceremony and I was truly honored. I was called on stage no less than three times. I recived the Most Oustanding Digital Media Student of the Year Award. A SEmmy Award for Sith Master Card. And the Most Oustanding New Digital Media Student Scholarship!! Quite Impressive I must say.

Barbara Sealund of Sealund and Associates presented me with the Check. She asked me to please submit my Resume and Portfolio to her company. Maybe thats a good sign.

I should graduate in July with a GPA of 3.9 which is considered High Honors. Hopefully everything will payoff and I can start making some real money. So I can accomplish a few of the things I came here to do this time around.

Alright so where were we... Talking about Egypt I think. Well lets go back a little further than that. Lets start at the beginning.

In the beginning......

Yes, I know "Dramatic" LOL... Alright. Well let me tell you how I think things have happened thus far. However, I do not claim to be an Authority on the subject. Simply because the Human mind can only hold and translate so much information at a time and it could never fully understand the complexity and enormity of the creation of the Universe, much less the Multiverse. So What I'm about to tell you is a very trimmed down verision of what may have actually happened. But to compare my story to what actually happened is like taking a Grand of Sand from Daytona Beach and Saying there it is. Theres Daytona Beach... However, its the best I've got so here goes.

In the Beginning there was No-thing. That is to say Nothing that we can comprehend. The entity or source that most people relate to as GOD is a mass of pure conciousness or mind. But this part of GOD is neither male nor female it is the all. It is as the Hebrews say Ayin Sof, the Unknowable and that is how I shall refer to it from here on out Ayin Sof.

At some point in the unknowable, unlimitable, infinity Ayin Sof awoke. In that split second of infinite time all that we know all that we will ever know was created and programed to exist within Ayin Sof. Ayin Sof withdrew and created an Infinite space within itself which could contain all the layers of the Multiverse. The programe of the Big Bang, Evolution and everything else that runs the basis and laws of the spiritual and physical universe was born.

During this first expanse of creation there was a plethora of conciousness born in sequence yet so close together as to sem simultaneous. The first creation or Begotten ones were born. Their spirits were of the Blue Frequence. Beings of pure light and Conscousness.. And it is from these beings that we get our Archetype Gods and Goddesses. The personal gods, angels, etc that we relate to.

These beings are all related to letters, numbers, and the Sephiroth. They are the creatures some call Angels or Celestials, or Gods. They are many names on many worlds.

They represent the blueprints for all life on all planets and these patterns repeat themselves manytimes until they are perfected.

These intelligences were the workers who helped the rest of creation along in all the realms, dimensions, spheres, and existences. They directed the energies, built the laws of creation and keep the Multiverse in motion toward creation. Perhaps it is these intilligences which are behind the Scientist mysterious Dark matter which they cant explain.. lol

My Soul Shard is from this original Source these first ones.. or so I believe. That is not to say that these beings are necessarily any better than those who are born FROM these creator intelligences or those under them. For truly all things are circular and those that are First will be Last.. and the Last, First.. All things go in patterns and all are working toward perfection of conciousness.

Alright.. thats a start.. I'll continue from here next time.

This first blog is more of an explination. I don't know how many of you out there will relate to this but I needed a place to freely express what flows through my heart and mind. First let me say this, the thoughts and views expressed here are going to be mine and mine alone. Comments are welcome but I will make no attempt to defend what I put here. I am doing this to have a place of pure freedom. If you dont agree with what I say, the please dont read my blogs. I don't care to explain myself defensively as this is not what this place is for. At least not for me. I am very careful not to infringe upon the reality of others thus why I've kept silent for so long... but my guides are telling me I must speak that those who would benifit from my knowledge can.

When I was a child, I knew I was different. First of all I never liked playing with other kids very much. I kept them around as background noise but most of them were too child like for me. When I played GI Joe for instance, there was a method to it. First each base had to be set up with a definiet border or middle ground between them. Cobra and GI Joe each had an air strip and and area for ground vehicles. So when I allowed a neighborhood child to play with me one day, and we had everything set up in the carport.. each base was where it was suppose to be.. I thought here we go.. its time to play.

Well the first thing this kid did was put his figure in a Tank... and then proceeded to FLY the Tank around... The game was over before it began.. because Tanks dont fly.. and he had a Helicopter and Two Jets if he wanted to attack me from the air! LOL... anyway.

I gave him the benifit of the doubt.. I said How come your Tank is Flying?.. He said "because". I said does it have some newly developed Anti Gravity device?.. He said " I dont know".. I said you do know that regular tanks cant fly right?.. He said "So".. I said.. why dont you use the Jet. He refused.

My Father was amused because I suddenly Heard the Childs Mother Calling for him.. ;) and told him so... He went running home.. and I finished my Game of GI Joe.. alone and accurately.

So you can see even as a child I had a certain way of doing things....

I've always had difficulty belonging anywhere... As a child I always hung out with the Adults and carried conversations with them.. and throughout my growing up, I always had friends who were three to four years older than me..

However, as an adult... I rarely meet anyone who is up to my level of Understanding... Now I'm not saying there arent people smarter than me.. Especially in certain areas such as Math.

But in areas of Spirtuality, Concept, Perspective, Creativity... I find very few peers whom I can hold indepth intellectual conversations with.. Whom I feel are on my level.. and I hate having to dumb down just to hold a conversation...

So I've found myself through the greater majority of my life being a loner. Now, people do like me, I could have plenty of friends if I wanted to spend my time with them.. and there are a few people who I do hold as equals and peers they know who they are and I am quite devoted to being friends with them.

So my point is, I knew I was different from the time I was very young.. but I didn't know why..

I was not raised in a strictly religious household and yet I was. My Mothers Side of the Family were mainly Jehovha's Witnesses to one varying degree or another. My Father's side were all Church of God. However, my Father started Studying with the JW's and liked it.. and so off and on throughout my childhood we went to the Kingdom Hall and I pretty much believed what I was taught about the bible... though we did celebrate birthdays and from time to time Christmas.. My Fathers Mother always had us over for Christmas and she always had a Tree.

Now whether or not I took all the Relgious BS hook, line and sinker.. I was a very spiritual child and I took many things to heart.. much more so than most of the adults around me at the time.

I had many experience as a child seeing Ghosts, UFO's Fairies, Gargoyles, Werewolfs... etc.. How many of those experiences were so called real or not I'm not sure but I know for certain quite a few of them were.

Because of these experiences and my feelings toward God, I thought I held a special place in Gods heart.. I felt I was in direct connection with God and that anything I asked for would happen.. to a degree.. I mean mainly where keeping those I loved protected was concerned. But I was stilly a worry filled child and I had many emotional outbursts with tears, because things didnt go a certain way or for some other fear.

Living in a haunted house didnt help matters.. because whatever was haunting it didnt like me at all.. I always had the feeling that the Windows were looking at me.. Funny enough I always felt More Safe outside than Inside that house.. Too many things happened there for me to describe right now.

So I felt I was special to God in some way.. like I Had a special purpose.. During this time is also when I first began my Facination with the Egyptian God Horus.. Though I didnt know thats what It was at the time.. or what to call him..

I remember watching the First Episode of Buck Rogers where Hawk showed up.. though he looked more like a Bald Eagle.. but he was my most favorite character. There was also a GI Joe Figure that came out who Also wore the Wings and Head of a Bird.. one of my favorite toys.. And of course there was Hawkman from DC Comics.. Though I conciously held more of a connection to Superman and Batman...

The first time I made a real connection to Ancient Egypt was when I was around Seven or Eight. there was a TV Show on at the time.. I dont quite rember the name of it.. Golden Goose or Something like that.. It was a Knock off of Indiana Jones.. These people had a Plane that could land on water and they went around collecting Ancient Treasures... Well they found this statue of Anubis and I was just facinated by it.. I had to know more.. but Sadly upon research I learned that according to the Jehovahs Witnesses and the Bible all the Ancient Egyptian Gods were Evil....

But then there was an Episode of the GI Joe Cartoon where they went to the Egyptian Underworld and that really got my attention.. I secretly started reading all about Egypt in Encylopedias and wherever I could get information about it.

But then Egypt was put on the backburner for awhile..... To be continued